Love divine

Thursday 26 April 2018


What love is this how can it be
That you so gave your life for me
You have turned my life around
And now I know I am homeward bound
Amazing love so true
I am thankful in all you do

You have given me the victory
And now through your eyes I can see
This love so precious so divine
I know that I am yours and you are mine
Amazing love so true
I am thankful in all you do

You have shed your blood for me
Which you did without any fuss
I can see through the clouds
And I know you are there when no one else is around
Amazing love so true
I am thankful in all that you do

I cannot wait until eternity
To leave this earth and to be with thee
But there are still so many souls to be won
But by your stripes you have overcome
Amazing love so true
I am thankful in all that you do

I am lost in wonder and lost in awe
For your love for man goes right through to the core
We are fearfully and wonderfully made
For your people who were once are no longer slaves
Amazing love so true
I am thankful in all that you do

Your angels are surrounding me always
And I know that by them I am not phased
Your love is full of mercy this is plain to see
I am so thankful for Your Word which I love to read
Amazing love so true
I am thankful in all that you do

By your blood this is amazing grace
For which you don’t care about colour or race
You take each one of your children as we are
For they have come to know you from near and far
Amazing love so true
I am thankful in all that you do
Copyright: Page Alexanda April 2018

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A special meeting

Tuesday 24 April 2018


I take this day one day at a time
Even though the hill ahead seems steep to climb
I look to you Lord as I walk on ahead
But sometimes these legs of mine feel like lead
I continue on oblivious of everything else
And as I walk the tears in my eyes begin to well

I am shaking and nervous all at once
As I know the weeks ahead will include some bumps
But I am ready to move forward and look beyond
To this meeting with my daughter of whom I am very fond
I can not wait to meet her and see what happens
Who knows where we will meet it could even be Clapham

There are lots of days in which I can prepare
Whereby I hope our relationship can be mended beyond repair
She will have lots of questions this I know
I just pray that in her I can give seeds that can be sown
And tell her about my faith which has brought me through
And that I can be a witness to her in just about everything I do

I was surprised by the letter which I received the other day
And I was hoping and at times I sat down to pray
For the right outcome to come out of this letter in my hand
And so, it did to an extent and I had feelings like sinking sand
Because I was told that this was to be a one-off meeting
I just pray that when we do get together it won’t be just fleeting

I have a lot to prepare for even though it is weeks away
I need to remember that my personal feelings I need to put at bay
For this is about Damaris and not at all to do with me
For how this meeting goes in the end we will just have to wait and see
I must remember not to build up my hopes
I wonder what will happen but then again how long is a piece of rope

For I can not predict the future or what takes place after
For me the weeks ahead could not go very much faster
Patience is the key and I must at all times remain very calm
If I need words of encouragement, then I can just turn to the book of Psalms
For the words written there will keep me in check
Otherwise I just think I would be at the end a nervous wreck

If all else fails and I don’t feel I can remain quite strong
Then I can look to you which is indeed where I know I belong
For my faith will surely see me through these days and weeks
As I know without a shadow of a doubt my faith is for keeps
I also pray that through her upbringing that Damaris might know you
For living by faith and grace alone will surely bring us both through

So, whatever the outcome may it be a positive one at that
I just hope for both our sakes the meeting doesn’t go flat
With lots to catch up on and tons of news to share
May it be a time of enlightenment and one of flair
May we both go away with good thoughts and a smile
Will we will meet again, maybe never or even by chance once in awhile
Copyright: Page Alexanda April 2018

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Have you lost your first love?

Tuesday 24 April 2018


Have you wandered far from home?
Or even do you feel so very alone
Do you feel ashamed or maybe even confused?
Perhaps in the past you may have been a little bit bruised
But the thought remains have you lost your first love?

Do you remember when your first asked me into your life
As you were going through many troubles and strife
I helped you along and at times carried you through
When you heart was aching, I was also there to soothe
But the thought remains have you lost your first love?

I remember the times in the beginning you were full of joy
When you reached out to others you were also quite coy
You would tell others about me right from the start
I knew where I was with you which was deep down in your heart
But the thought remains have you lost your first love?

My Word was constantly open, and you would go through the pages
You would start at the very beginning and go through the stages
Of my life which I recall you began to know so very well
You could recite verse upon verse does this ring a bell?
But the thought remains have you lost your first love?

I recall you getting down on your knees every single morning
Where talking to me was a pleasure and you didn’t find boring
You would chat for more than an hour each and every day
Talking so much to me was so much fun whereby you had plenty to say
But the thought remains have you lost your first love?

Quite often you would sit and chill out by the fire
Reading your bible out loud was one of your desires
Or you would be in the summer sun and just read chapter and verse
Because of my love I could tell your heart was fit to burst
But the thought remains have you lost your first love?

Only now I begin to wonder do you take time to reflect
As I hardly hear from you now as your heart is full of neglect
The busyness of life seems to have done nothing but overtake you
So, I know what is missing and what you alone now must do
But the thought remains have you lost your first love?

So, I just ask that you come back under my fold
All you need to do is to seek my face and just be bold
For I will welcome you back with open arms held wide
Please know that not once have I ever left your side
All you need to do is to come back to your very first love
Copyright Page Alexanda April 2018

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Dare to believe

Monday 23 April 2018



All I can do is take one day at a time
Just take things steady and slowly
Wanting to see you more than once
I ask this now, is this such a crime

I realise that things are in your hands
And that at the end of the day you are in control
But I can’t help wishing, hoping
That a flame will stoke these fans

You are so mature now in all you do
You have finally grown up after all these years
Quite the young lady you are now
After all that happened years ago I thought I knew

What to expect now time has passed
But God has blown me away
With an answered prayer what can I say
The time Is coming when I will meet you at last

Butterflies are running through me
That I find it difficult to even think
Let alone do daily tasks as my mind is in a whirl
But I know that whatever happens, what will be will be

I have dreamed of this day for so long
Giving it over to the Lord continuously in prayer
And I was wondering if He would answer me
I just needed reassurance that with you I belonged

Alas just one meeting is all you desire
This kind of breaks my heart I must confess
So, to pray for a breakthrough as I have been doing
Maybe after this meeting things won’t be so dyer

After all you know what is best for your life now
All I can do is pray for my heart to be still
And to be at peace and eternally grateful for this one opportunity
That you have brought to me Lord this one meeting you allow

Once we meet, I need to listen to you
For you will have questions and needing answers from me
Of which I will answer to the best of my ability
And then we will go on our way only time will tell if we are through
Copyright: Page Alexanda April 2018

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Time is a healer

Thursday 19 April 2018


Every day is getting easier to cope with
Being with you I feel now was a myth
But this wasn’t the case I can tell you now
Now I can move on from here and blend into the crowd

I feel easier now and less under the weather
At least now for sure I can hold things together
For the last several months this wasn’t the case
But at last now I am in a much better place

I have so much to look forward to in the coming year
Now I can move on without feeling so much fear
Wondering, whispering alone in the dark
Starting to move forwards this feels like an art

Only time will tell how well I am doing
I thought I was going forward before but alas without moving
The cry from my heart is to gain more solid ground
Whereas before I was crying inside and sometimes out loud

With lots of help from my Faith and friends all over
I didn’t have to rely on things like four leaf clover
To get me through the days and weeks ahead
Where as in the past I was so low I would take to my bed

Now Spring is in full of lots of sunshine and warmth
I no longer have to pretend let alone just perform
For things seem so much brighter now which is great
I no longer feel annoyed, angry or even the slightest irate

The seasons have come and gone over the past several months
I can face the future so bright and even buy flowers by the bunch
To cheer me up in the coming days and months that lay before me
I can get up in the mornings with lustre and at last believe

In my Saviour who is there for me through and through
He is right beside me and in every little thing that I do
I no longer have to just cope or let alone just get by
Or even at times say everything is fine when in fact I have lied

Now things don’t always appear as blatant black or white
I can move on forwards where you alone are now out of sight
I don’t have to pretend or put on a show for all to see
I can finally move on and at last finally of you be set free
Copyright: Page Alexanda April 2018

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The issues of Modesty - Part Two

Wednesday 18 April 2018

Is modesty an issue in the church today, well yes, I believe it is. Sadly, things have changed from even a couple of centuries ago when women would wear hats/head coverings to church and their Sunday best. But even during the rest of the week the women would dress in modest apparel.
God invented clothes. He clothed Adam and Eve after sin entered the Garden of Eden. At first Adam and Eve never had to wear clothes. Nakedness was not shameful, and clothing was not necessary. But they immediately recognized the need for covering their bodies after sin entered the picture. It was the first effect of sin-shame and a need to cover up their nakedness.

God’s dress code from the beginning has been to cover our nakedness and God designed the clothing to cover the whole body, not just the private parts. Clothes were not for revealing the body’s shape or drawing attention to body parts; rather they were intended by God to take attention away from the body.

1 Timothy 2.9 reads “Likewise also that women should adorn themselves in respectable apparel, with modesty and self-control, not with braided hair and gold or pearls or costly attire”,
Paul is not saying it is wrong for Christian women to have nice hair, jewellery or dresses. What he is saying is that the church assembly should not turn into a fashion show. Unfortunately, in many of our modern churches today – that is just the case. Paul is not saying women cannot wear nice Sunday dresses, he is just saying women should not go overboard or be trying to compete with one another in what they wear for worship.
v  We should dress modestly, with decency and propriety.
v  We should not wear clothes or accessories for the purpose of trying to draw attention to ourselves or to “show off”.
v  Inner beauty is far more important than outer beauty and it should be far more highly desired that outward things we do to look good. What does it mean to dress modestly with decency and propriety? Though styles have changed from generation to generation, modesty never changes. Modesty may take different looks, but it will always be modest, no matter what generation we are in or what the current fashion may be.
v  Modest cloths do not exploit a woman’s body or features. Modest clothes will not display body parts for the purpose of drawing attention to them. Not only does modesty require that certain body parts should be completely covered, but also that the shape of our bodies should not be unnecessarily and immodestly emphasized with tight fitting clothes.
v  Dressing with propriety means dressing appropriately. It means there is a difference in the way we dress for a sports activity, for a casual event, and for more structured, formal occasions, such as worship. But all occasions call for modesty in our dress, whether we’re on the beach or sitting in church.
v  Modest dress will not say “sex” or “pride” or “money”. But it certainly can say “good taste”, “attractive”, “pretty”. A Christian woman should want to do the best she can with what God has given her. There is nothing to be gained spiritually by looking drab or dowdy. Our clothes don’t need to scream “Christian”, but they should quietly say “modest”, “appropriate”, “carefully chosen”.
1 Peter 3:4 reads “It should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight”.

People need to see Jesus when they look at our lives, reactions, wardrobes, and facial expressions.
Modesty in the way we dress is not just for church; it is to be the standard for all Christians at all times. The key to understanding what constitutes modesty in dress is to examine the attitudes and intents of the heart. Those whose hearts are inclined toward God will make every effort to dress modestly, decently, and appropriately. Those whose hearts are inclined toward self will dress in a manner designed to draw attention to themselves with little or no regard for the consequences to themselves or others.

A Godly woman endeavours to do everything with a “God-ward” perspective. She knows that God wants His people to be concerned for His glory and the spiritual state of their brothers and sisters in Christ. I fa  woman professes to be a Christian yet she dresses in a way that will unduly draw attention to her body, she is a poor witness of the One who bought her soul by dying for her on the cross. She is forgetting that her body has been redeemed by Christ and is now the temple of the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 6:19-20). She is telling the world that she determines her own worth on a purely physical basis and that her attractiveness depends on how much of her body she reveals to them. Further, by dressing in an immodest fashion, displaying her body for men to lust after, she causes her brothers in Christ to sin, something condemned by God (Matthew 5:27-29), (Proverbs 7:10) mentions a woman “dressed like a prostitute and with crafty intent” – here the woman’s heart condition is displayed by her manner of dress.

The scripture says that we are to dress modestly, but what exactly does that mean in modern society? Does a woman have to be covered from head to toe? There are cults and religions in the world that demand this of women. But is that the biblical meaning of modesty? Again, we have to go back to the matter of the attitudes of the heart. If a woman’s heart is inclined toward godliness, she will wear clothing that is neither provocative nor revealing in public, clothing that does not reflect negatively upon her personal testimony as a child of God. Everyone else in her circle may be dressing immodestly, but she resists the temptation to go along with the crowd. She avoids clothing designed to draw attention to her body and cause men to lust, for she is wise enough to know that type of attention only cheapens her. The idea of causing men to sin against God because of her dress is abhorrent to her because she seeks to love and honour God and wants others to do the same.

Modesty in dress reveals a modesty and godliness of the heart, attitudes that should be the desire of all women (and men) who live to please and honour God.
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Modesty is not first an issue of clothing. It is primarily an issue of the heart. If you find yourself rebelling against the idea that there is a standard of dress required of you a s a Christian woman, and if you want to wear those low-cut fashions that reveal cleavage or the tight pants or short skirts that reveal shape, then I would suggest you may have a heart problem, which is evidenced by the way you dress. Anytime we rebel against biblical principles, it is because we don’t want to obey God. We want to be our own god, if you please, and live by our own standards.

Fathers please teach your daughters from an early age of how to dress appropriately, compliment your daughters on their choice of clothing – teaching your daughters from an early age is important.

Do you want a man or a boy to be attracted to you simply because of sexual desire or lust? That’s what prostitutes do. Or do you want to attract a man because he sees something much more valuable in you than just outward beauty? What kind of man do you want to attract? The way you dress sends that message.
In the end, whatever, we do as men or women, or whatever we wear should all be done in a manner that would bring glory to God and not bring shame to him in the eyes of the world:

Other scriptures to ponder are:

1 Corinthians 6: 19-20, 1 Peter 3:3-4, Matthew 5:28, Proverbs 31: 25, James 1: 15, Proverbs 7:10, 1 Peter 5:5, Romans 12:1 Titus 2:3-5 and 1 Corinthians 12: 22-24

If you have not read it yet please read “the issues of Modesty – Part 1” – click here:

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The most beautiful book there is

Tuesday 17 April 2018


One day at a time I must take
If I am to do anything more than just win this race
Over sin over victory my life I must take
In every single day without any mistakes

Oh, how eager am I to do what is right
But this must mean that I can’t do whatever I like
For you I must soldier on to fight this battle
For your record I live in the UK and not in Seattle

What do I do all day you may wonder so?
For starters in the morning I sometimes tie my hair with a bow
And then I get ready to start my day
Which often starts with such a gentle phase

My bible is laid down beside my bed
This is a book that I have more than once read
Of all my reading that I often do
This is the one book that is so very true

From Genesis to revelations this is quite a stance
Not a book to contend with let alone just look at with a glance
For this well-known book has many tales to tell
And I am sure that for many dollars this book will alone sell

The Word of God is in homes far and wide
For it’s words alone have been tested and tried
Not one to be found thoughtless in either word or deed
If you read through the pages you will see many seeds

Seeds of wisdom and nuggets to ponder
This book holds stories of might and wonder
Not a page to be taken lightly at that
To read it I am found quite often on a chair where I am sat

Holding mysteries and fragments from coast to coast
To say you have read it over and over please kindly do not boast
For it holds wisdom far beyond my years
But it is certainly for those with itchy ears

For you can read it out loud to your heart’s content
The stories come together that they are found to blend
From how God made the world in the first six days
To a new heaven and a new earth are coming as the bible for says

In between the old and the new testament are words of poetry
That are so beautiful, and the words just read so flowingly
The words bring many tears to your eyes
That you will need a box of tissues right by your side

So, if you have not heard of or even read this wondrous book so far
Then I would get a copy and read it at home or even in a local bar
For questions will be asked about this book you behold
And if you know it enough you can tell others the stories this book alone unfolds
Copyright: Page Alexanda April 2018

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You have overcome

Tuesday 17 April 2018


Into our lives you came
For us you fired the flame
you took away our shame
Your bore our sins on the cross
For you are here for the lonely and lost

For the rich and the poor alike
You have given us a new freedom
Hallelujah you have given us wisdom
And we are no longer slaves to sin
For from the heavens you were set to win

The victory of the cross in our lives
We are caught in wonder for what you did
For our old lives once saved you got rid
How could we be the same again
For through your grace we have everything to gain

We are changed in an instant
By your love by your grace
For it is by you that we are saved
Nothing more, nothing less
For us you did more than your very best

You have overcome the world
You have brought us a new
Into your kingdom for which you rule
For you gave your love for us
We have given up our old selves without a fuss

Wondrous freedom is ours to take
Every blessing and every word of your truth
For which we have absolutely nothing to lose
Heavens rejoice at the sound of your name
And so, must we do nothing but the same

Let us reach out to one another
For you have called us to witness like a flame
And so, we reach out to others without blame
This glorious Father we have in you
For you have overcome and so must we too

You are our precious redeemer to the very end
Through you our lives have just begun
For we are in a race which is now set to run
Praying into your kingdom is a must
For it is in you alone that we are to trust
 Copyright: Page Alexanda April 2018

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Trusting in God

Friday 13 April 2018


This is a fictional story for Faith Writers and this week’s subject is “rash”

This one particular day I just knew I had to get out of bed and get started for the day ahead but Oh I was having so much me time just enjoying the comfort of my bed that it was hard to shift myself but shift myself I must. So, after a long stretch I just mumbled to myself ok girl you really do need to get going. I then put my feet on the floor and got up and had another stretch whereby I then decided I needed a cup of coffee.

After I had showered and dressed for the morning and had my second cup of coffee (yes, I like my coffee, but it has to be weak), I then did my bible study which was fun and was on Ephesians 6, basically all about the Armour of God – so that was good. I spent some time in prayer as well thinking and remember friends and family that I needed to pray for before going to look at my “to do list” for the day. Whilst I was reading through I heard the phone ringing, so I thought I had better answer the call-in case it was important.

As it happened the call was from a dear friend who had been struggling health wise up until a few days ago. Anyway, she needed to get to the doctor’s surgery that morning as her car had broken down. The appointment was an important one. I knew I had a lot on today and I wasn’t sure if I could fit in taking this friend for her appointment. Oh decisions, decisions  had to be made. I needed to make a rash decision and it had to be the right decision whereby I could see if another friend could take her otherwise I would need to take her in my car and forgo something else I had to do which was equally important. Oh, my what was I to do, I hated making rash decisions and sometimes when I did do this for other reasons they weren’t always the right decisions.

I decided to take this to The Lord in prayer, so I did. Not long after I had prayed the phone rang again and basically this was from another friend saying that she felt I should take this other friend to the doctors that morning and she would take care of one of the other important things on my list that I had to do. Now how did this friend possibly know about the predicament I was in - this only had to be from the Lord. So, I breathed a sigh of relief knowing my prayer had indeed been answered.

I took my friend to the doctors and as it happened I am pleased I went with her as she had some good news, you see she had been suffering from Fibromyalgia and the week before I had forgotten that I had prayed for her healing. The doctor who saw her this morning gave her a clean bill of health and she was no longer in pain or suffering from any of the symptoms of this horrible illness – how on earth could I have forgotten that I had prayed with her. We got in the car and we both thanked Jesus for her healing and then we decided to go for a well-deserved lunch – so we did 😊. Just knowing that our prayers had been answered was a true blessing from God as He always knows what we need right at the anointed time. He is indeed a Father who answers prayers and we just need to trust in Him.

So, I know that before I make any rash decisions in life that I need to take them to The Lord and I just know He will be faithful in answering my prayers as He will yours too.
Copyright: Page Alexanda April 2018


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A troubled young girl

Thursday 12 April 2018


When I was a young girl
There was often abuse at me hurled
Unwanted attention from middle aged guys
They showered me with love and affection, but it was a disguise
For all they wanted was to abuse me inside
And I often felt that I had nowhere to hide

At the bottom of the road from me
Lived a couple I would often see
But when the guy was on his own,
He would turn into a different person who I later condoned
He would turn on the affection and charm
And at that young age I thought he wasn’t doing any harm

I was craving so much love and attention
That what happened to me are to many times to mention
I was often showered with sweets
That my life I felt was on a very short leash
For things at home were quite bad a lot
That at times I felt as if I had lost the plot

My parents would argue much of the time
That space by myself alone I would quite often find
For I needed time out and away from the house
That backwards and forwards I would very often bounce
With shouting and beatings that did occur
After all of these years now most of it is a blur

I was a loner even though I had quite a few friends
Visiting the elderly though had become much of a trend
To their bungalows I would go at noon for a chat
And would end up doing their shopping & looking after their cats
I found this ideal for me to get away from home
Where out of proportion things were quite often blown

When we moved from the town where we used to live
The abuse still continued with my mother being manipulative
Other abuse would continue, and I would often run away
Oh, how I wished the hours would go by until the beginning of the next day
Whereby things would be better at least for awhile
I would have loved to have answered back to my folks, but this wasn’t my style

Despite what was happening at home my childhood was great
And there were very few times whereby I would become irate
My friends were great fun and very sound
And there were times I wanted to live with them, but I wasn’t allowed
So, moving on swiftly I knew the abuse had to come to an end
At eighteen I moved away to Vienna to a family where I would finally blend
Copyright: Page Alexanda April 2018

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Naomi

Wednesday 11 April 2018


Once upon a time many years ago
Is this story of a girl I used to know
She was funny and kind
And all things sweet
She was also so very sublime

She had a faith that was so strong
And I have no doubt in Jesus she belonged
Naomi was her name
She was so nice if it is all the same
She loved life
And she would put many people to shame

She had a disability it was plain to see
But still her clothes sense was very neat
I remember she made me a cross
And alas I have lost it
So, this I know is my loss

Naomi, lived with her family in Vienna
She was I have to say indeed very clever
She could sing and sew
And would attend church
But what happened to her who knows

I would get to see her at least once a week
When it was at these times that God I would seek
She knew her bible so well
And would read to me sometimes
So often in His Word she would dwell

We became quite close friends
And to me she led a very good trend
She would always be happy
And so carefree in life
It never happened that with me she would get snappy

This young lady was so close to her family
But due to her health there were times she was in agony
No matter what she was always cheerful
And would be found quite often smiling
I often wondered back then why my life wasn’t also so blissful

She was slow to anger and rich in love
And her faith as I said came from above
She was always very patient
And loved everyone she met
Her life was God given and I am sure to Him was very fragrant

I miss her and think of her quite often
As she would love to know my heart towards God has softened
And I am a different person now
I really pray she is in a good place
She would love to hear of my faith in God I have now found
Copyright: Page Alexanda April 2018


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Being still in His presence

Wednesday 11 April 2018


The following article is written for Faith Writers and this week’s topic is “annoyed”

There are times in life where I find it so hard to be still and I can feel times of anger which can be righteous anger but even so. I guess I need to just be still and talk openly to God and listen to the Holy Spirit during these times. For me the hardest thing is just to “be” as I am constantly on the go and these are times that I find it hard to just sit still sometimes. I have my bible handy to which I can turn to when I feel the need or a gentle push of the Holy Spirit speaking to me.  I should pick up His Word every day but I do find this difficult and this all has to do with being able to sit still.

When I get up in the morning I will often say Good Morning Father and that is about as far as my talking with God goes. I then get up and get busy with things that I need to do without thinking for a minute that I should talk to God first thing in the morning. I do find it difficult speaking to God and I often feel as if my words are not relevant or I feel lost not knowing what to say to Him. I can talk to friends and family about how I am feeling but I should be talking to God, but I don’t so hence more often than not I end up getting annoyed with myself.  I know I have the prompting of the Holy Spirit and there are sometimes that I talk to Him but not often enough.

I remember the year before last going to a conference that was on prayer and basically conversing with the Holy Spirit and after the conference on this particular Sunday afternoon I got home and spent an hour lying on my bed just pouring out my heart to God. The time went by so quickly that I was surprised, and I felt like I was walking on air I felt so good. But alas I have not been able to do this very much since then.

I do have a sheet by which I do follow for certain periods of time. It is basically on how to spend an hour with God every day and it is split up into 5-minute segments totaling one hour. I can do this for a few days and then something happens, and I don’t do it for a while and I end up feeling guilty. I could start all over again and start off slowly and not run before I can walk. I do try and spend about five to ten minutes a day in the Word of God and I use the Every day with Jesus one-year bible as I like how this bible is set out plus it gives little segments of thought at the end of each day. There is also a prayer and further study of the scriptures if you want to get into this.

I long to be able to sit down and be able to pray but this is something that I have always found difficult and I guess this has something to do with my not so good relationship with my earthly father. I realise this is not the same and that my relationship with God needs to be different and I know I will get there eventually. The times that I do manage to have time with God I feel so much better and my day runs smoothly and when I don’t then sometimes this is a different story.
I could start off my time with God today which would be good. I have also felt led to take communion at home once a week (unless church is doing communion during the Sunday service then I won’t partake of bread and wine at home). When I have done this before about four years ago this was because I was led again by the Holy Spirit.

I know God does not expect miracles, but I do have a heart for prayer and I guess I need to learn not to be annoyed with myself and just learn to be in His presence day by day, after all I have everything to gain but, I still need to learn to be still in His presence!

Every Blessing,
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